catch-up...

...it's difficult not to write about the last few days without sounding self-pitying - but it I have had particularly lousy time, not so much from the immediate effects of RA (although there is no let-up on that front), but a combination of unpleasant unwanted drug effects, encroaching depression and simple loneliness.
Thursday was the pits - I have rarely felt as low, angry and upset - and without any apparent immediate cause - this sort of stuff is however, pretty normal for chronic pain conditions generally and RA in particular.
On Friday the drugs took over my digestive system in ways that are painful to recall - so I won't.

Good stuff - well there was some of that as well - going into work on Tuesday for a few hours was a real pleasure; I was able to talk to Rich and Pen about how I felt on Thursday, and on Friday evening the stiffness in my hands let up enough for me to play guitar, and I wigged out playing along to records (everyone else being out).

I feel quite a bit better now, but Thursday has left me shaken and worried - I don't want more days like that....